As I write this my son is taking a pen I was just using and rubbing it all over my arm.
"I just need some time"
"It's not you, it's me"
I'm sure those quotes look familiar to you, as they were expressed in one of your favourite romantic comedies. Only this time it isn't intended to be a breakup line- it's a simple I love you but please just leave me alone for 5 minutes ( I take that back, I'd like at least 3 uninterrupted hours lol).
Being a mother is tough. It is one of the greatest things in the world and I am so grateful for the opportunity but I really miss time to myself.
Just over a week ago Landon got sick, well the whole house was sick but his was definitely the worst and lasted the longest. It was heartbreaking to see him in the state that he was in, often sleeping I looked at him with so much sadness that he wasn't feeling like his usual bubbly self. But I also had a longing for his laugh, running around yelling, showing interest in foods only to not really eat them, just to be awake and more alert. Well, now he is 100% better and he is doing everything I just mentioned and more and NOW I want him to nap for hours- funny how that works isn't it?
Time to myself is a vital part of me being the best I can be for him. I'm way more fun when I'm rested, and had my daily multi-vitamin (Renai time, wonderful brand lol). Waking up at 5:00am has slowly drifted to 7:30ish and I usually don't spend more than an hour awake before falling back asleep. So I guess it's partly my fault, or maybe I need to adjust our playtime activities so that he is more entertained and then will be content with someone solo-play time. I'm not sure when this independent play will kick in but I really can't wait to see what that will be like.
I also have to recognize that the moments that I have alone should be used for things that I enjoy, rather than trying to squeeze in cleaning & laundry all the time. So to the mamas that are just so tired and in need of some alone time, I hope you take advantage of friends and family that are able to watch your kiddos (if even for a short while), make dates with friends, play your favourite music to keep you smiling through the days you want to staple your ears shut from "mommy, mommy", do something that will get you through the tough ones, because plenty are ahead- but so are the wonderful ones!
I'd love to see what your list would look like, comment below what you would have on your list (for this with Instagram feel free to check out my stories, screen shot the graphic and tag me with your reply!)