Dear Postpartum Body

When we first got together I was a bit scared of you. I wasn’t sure how you would act, would you be the same as last time or completely different? You definitely started off differently. You didn’t send pain down my legs like before, you were a lot nicer to me. But you also came with a few surprises of your own. I was never too hung up on the concept of “snap-back”, I mean- isn’t that a type of hat? Well you sure did my head in when you housed my sweet boy. Once he left there was a void, and though my stomach didn’t look the same I secretly wished it did. Instead of firm with little kicks coming, you were droopy- and discoloured (still are-somewhat) and nothing like what so many people assume. You didn’t go back down to your pre-baby weight until around 7 weeks- but thats cool, I’m alright with taking things slow. I am doing my best to feed you right but I’m not sitting around eating salad either. I am eating what I want, what I like the most and feel no ways about it. We can often get caught up with all that we see in the mirror instead of recognizing all that we are capable of and posses that isn’t reflected in that way. I am so much more than a number on the scale. YOU are so much more than just a “postpartum” body. You are my child carrying, friend hugging, rhythm holding, food digesting, leg supporting-body. You do a lot, and I am grateful for you. There are days that I don’t think this way, there will be days to come where I won’t recognize this- so before I forget, and to allow me to reflect in times to come, I wanted to say thank you. Thank you for making life extra special, for the milk production, the arms strong enough to hold my boys, eyes that though the vision has changed- they still work. Thanks for getting up when everything in me wanted to keep sleeping, helping me not to be selfish. Thanks for the anemia that reminded me to slow down, for the haemorrhoids that …umm..well it actually connected me to another mother, so theres that (lol). I think you get where I am going, I am grateful for you.

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Almost One

To my dearest Landon, 

After it rains a beautiful rainbow emerges, that rainbow is you. Did you know that when mommy and daddy look at you, we are reminded that God is faithful? Because we do. 

We are so grateful that you are here and can’t believe that a year ago you weren’t (not outside yet anyway..) You are such a sweet boy, and I’m not just saying that because you’re my sweet boy, you really are.

Everywhere we go we hear   “look at that smile, he has such a beautiful smile”.

 

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It brings light to any room and from the days that it was gummy to now that it’s filled with 7 teeth, it’s my favorite smile. But back to the teeth, I can’t believe they have emerged and so quickly too..you rarely eat real food with them though, your favorite treats are paper, cardboard, tissue and anything else that you aren’t supposed to put in your mouth. 

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Its so much harder to catch you now because you are walking ! What started off as a few steps here and there became daily trips around the house on foot, I hope you never lose your sense of determination. With each missed step you always get up. I hope you continue that through out your life.  

 

You have such an amazing sense of wonder, I love to watch you explore, discover new things, new smells, new textures, new sounds and new faces. But when you discover something mommy and daddy don’t want you to explore, I pray our discipline and prayers will not be in vain. When you hear the word no I hope you understand it doesn’t mean we don’t love you, it means we love you enough to protect you.  

We will not spare your hands or little butt from what will correct you. But know that we will always be there to hold your hand, we love you so, so much! 

I could go on and on because you are just that special, but tears blur my vision so I will end here. 

I hope you have the happiest of birthdays tomorrow. 

-Love,

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